Sunday, May 15, 2011

Running Away

Last nights dream was just strange to me, as most of my dreams are.

Matt, the kids and myself were planning a trip up to see his dad. We packed the kids in the truck and headed northbound. Matt was driving the truck and i was riding shotgun. He was driving really close to the lake and it seemed to be flooded. There were ice chunks and snow around and a lot of people all along the shore. We stopped the truck and got out. Eli wanted to go swimming but i was clearly too cold. I stepped into the water and it was warm. We were then up and in a hotel. My sister, he husband and her kids were there as well. Briana and I had tickets to some kind of red carpet awards down at the hotel across the street. We went down and there were some celebrities around. I remember some kind of issues like a broken window but we did end up in the theartre and watched some of the awards.
Later we were still "up north" and on the way to matts fathers but i was at a. Itallian wedding for some reason. It was in a large room that reminded me much of a cafeteria and i remember looking at some people but not really noticing the rest. The room was filled with people though. I went outside to have a ciggerette with a group of men and was talking with on in particular. He was older, about his mid 50's or so and he was telling me about the bride and groom. The groom was one of 12 members of the band "Boston". (I know there are not 12 people in the band but that was the case in my dream. lol! ) As we were out side i jumped up and was up on the wall of the building near the roof. I kind of floated down and lit a ciggerette. One of the men was startled and taken back by me jumping like i did. He suddenly was "on to me" and knew i didnt really belong at the wedding. There was a monkey on the porch with a gun and was fumbling around with the shotgun and almost shot himself a few times. I ran around the building to avoid the monkey with the gun.
I went back into the wedding and was drinking a Fresca. The man from  outside came up to me and asked me for my credit card, I told him no and he tried robbin gme of it. He said i owed 16$ for the soda. I told him no way and ran out of the wedding. He asked if i was staying for dinner and i told him no because they w ould probably charge me for it. I ran out and ran down the street. A blonde girl about the same age as me was chasing after me. I took of running down the side walk of streets just out side of the city. The girl was trying to talk to me but i dont remember what she was saying. Then the side walk eneded and we were at the ocean. It was crystal clear and sapphire blue. The sun was beating down and it was beautiful. We both ran off of the sidewalk and jumped, fully clothed into the water. It felt great. Then we noticed that we were in someones back yard and the woman was sunbathing on her porch. She glanced at us as we climbed up the ladder on her peir. She didnt say a word, but we had apologized and left walking through her house. As we passed by the hallway there were a few guys in a room smoking and playing some video games. The blonde girl wanted to stay and i was out of there. As i walked out of the front door of the house and the blonde girl was there on the stoop looking up at me in only a white dress shirt and soaked from jumping into the water. I was then worried about my phone and the fact that it was wet and i needed to find Matt and the kids to head up to his dads house. I tried using my phone but it was all messed up and crackling because of water damage.  I tried looking in my phone for matts number but it wasnt in my phone at all. I decieded to turn it off untill it dried and maybe i would have a better chance at it working.
I walked allong with the blonde girl still following me. We eneded up in the middle of the city at a train station. We were sitting around waiting for the train outside and talking with a group of black men. I remember talking to one in particular and telling him about my experience at the wedding and then what happened to my phone. There was then two blonde girls there with me. They were both talking crap about the other and comparing body types. One was a bit larger than the other but she seemed happy and content, the other was still big but had some surgery done to her figure and she was flaunting it. I then walked away and tried calling matt again. The communication was still broken up but we eneded up meeting by the side of the road. Just Briana and Matt were in the truck and i was instantly worried about my son Elijah. I awoke worried because he had a fever before bed last night.
Road Trip
To dream that you are taking a road trip, signifies your life journey and the decisions you make in life. If the road trip is a smooth one, then it indicates that you are transitioning smoothly through life's events. If the road trip is chaotic, then it denotes the many obstacles and issues in your waking life. Consider the destination and the stops that you make on your road trip.

*The road trip had many stops and issues along the route.
To see your father-in-law in your dream, signifies joyous occasions with friends and family.

*We were never with him, just on the way. That was the route Matt wasnted to take. Which is his idea of where he wants to go in life. Just doing what he wants and having fun.
To see your offspring in your dream, symbolizes an aspect of yourself that you are trying to nurture. The dream is telling you to take some time off so you can cater to the inner child within.

*Apparently i need to find that child who has been lost with in me.
To dream that you are riding in a vehicle (car, boat, trains, etc.), signifies the level and type of control you have over your life. Alternatively, the dream means that someone is exerting their power over you, depending on who is in the driver's seat.

* Matt was driving the truck. Representing the idea i feel matt is controlling my life.
To dream of the direction north, symbolizes reality. It also indicates that you are making progress and moving forward in life.

To see a lake in your dream, signifies your emotional state of mind. You feel restricted and that you can't express your emotions freely. Alternatively, the lake may provide you with solace, security, and peace of mind. If the lake is clear and calm, then it symbolizes your inner peace. If the lake is disturbed, then you may be going through some emotional turmoil.

*The lake was flodded and filled with ice and snow. I feel it is representing the face that we are going through some turmoil in our relationship and its cold.
To dream that you are in a flood, represents your need to release some sexual desires. If the flood is raging, then it represents emotional issues and tensions. Your repressed emotions are overwhelming you. Consider where the flood is for clues as to where in your waking life is causing you stress and tension. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are overwhelming others with your demands and strong opinion. Still another interpretation could be your desire to wipe everything clean and make a fresh new start.

*Again showing the emotional issues in our relationship.
To see people you don't know in your dream, denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront or acknowledge.

To see water in your dream, symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment. To dream that water is boiling, suggests that you are expressing some emotional turmoil. Feelings from your unconscious are surfacing and ready to be acknowledged. You need to let out some steam. To see calm, clear water in your dream, means that you are in tune with your spirituality. It denotes serenity, peace of mind, and rejuvenation.

To feel warmth in your dream, signifies contentment and satisfaction in your current state. You are happy with where you are. Alternatively, feeling warmth is analogous to hope and unconditional love.

*I feel this is representing the hope i try to keep. Eventhough it all looks so cold and bad i still try hard to feel that hope.
To see a hotel in your dream, signifies a new state of mind or a shift in personal identity. You are undergoing some sort of transition and need to move away from your old habits and old way of thinking. You need to temporarily escape from your daily life. Alternatively, the dream may imply a loss in your personal identity.

*as it has.
To see a ticket in your dream, represents the price you need to pay to attain your goals. You have decided on your path in life. A ticket signifies the start of a new endeavor. Consider also the type of ticket. A bus or train ticket symbolizes the price you pay to get ahead in life, while a movie ticket represents your need to be more objective in a situation.

Broken Windows
To see a shattered and broken window in your dream, represents your distorted view and outlook on life. It is also indicates a state of vulnerability.

To dream that you receive an award, indicates that you feel you deserve some recognition or some acknowledgment of your work. To dream that you do not win an award, symbolizes feelings of inadequacy.

To see an actor or actress in your dream, represents your pursuit for pleasure. Your admiration of a particular celebrity may lead to a desire to have some of their physical or personality traits. Consider also who this actor/actress is and what characteristics you associate with him or her. These may be the same characteristics that you need to acknowledge or incorporate into yourself. The dream may also be a pun on his or her name.

*i feel the ticket, the awards and the celebrities represent the identity i am not living. The broken window represents the fact that everything in the awards ceremony is distorted. I am not that. Maybe I couldnve been, who knows.
To see a wedding in your dream, symbolizes a new beginning or transition in your current life.  A wedding reflects your issues about commitment and independence.

To dream that you are attending a wedding, consider how you feel at the wedding. If you are upset or sad, then it means that you are unhappy about the current status of your life. If you are happy, then you are embracing a new change in your life.
*I was feeling like i didnt belong or like I was trying to fit in but didnt feel comfortable at all.
To dream that you are in a cafeteria, denotes that there may be a lot of issues "eating" you up inside.

*There are A LOT of issues eating me up.
If you are female and see a groom in your dream, then it represents your desire to be in a committed relationship or to be married. Maybe you are ready to enter into a partnership.
*It must be representing the idea that i want a more committed marriage?
Twelve denotes spiritual strength and divine perfection. It also represents cycles and repetition

*This may be representing the cycles of grief i am enduring.
To see men in your dream, represent an authoritative figure or a father figure. If you are a woman and dream that you are in a room full of men, then it highlights the masculine aspect of yourself. The dream forces you to acknowledge your authoritative and aggressive side. Consider also how the men are dressed as this will provide a clue as to what area in your life you need to assert more power.

*Maybe this is telling me i need to assurt more power on what i want out of this marriage?
If you do not smoke in waking life and dream that you are smoking, then it indicates that you are trying to shield yourself and others against your emotions. You have trouble letting others in.�The dream may also be a metaphor for an addictive relationship or habit in your waking life.
To see someone smoking in your dream, depends on your on personal associations with smoking. However, it often indicates some sort of dissension, disagreement or rebellion.

*This may also be pointing at my marriage and its condition.
To dream that you are jumping, indicates that you need to take a risk and go for it. You will overcome your obstacles and find progress toward your goals. Consider the metaphors "jumping for joy" to mean thrill and excitement or "jumping the gun" to mean impatience or impulsiveness. The way you feel in the dream will provide additional significance and meaning to your dream.

*I was jumping 2Xs in this dream, once away from all the men up onto the wall of the building and again into the ocean. The time i was jumping away from the group of men i dont quite understand. I almost had the flying feel to it.
To see a monkey in your dream, symbolizes deceit, insight and intuition. Those around you are working to advance their own interest. Alternatively, monkeys indicate an immature attitude, a playful nature and the mischievous side of your personality.

To see a gun in your dream, symbolizes aggression, anger, and potential danger. You may be dealing with issues of passiveness/aggressiveness and authority/dependence. Alternatively, a gun represents the penis and male sexual drive. Thus, the gun may mean power or impotence, depending on whether the gun went off or misfired.

To dream that someone is shooting you with a gun, suggests that you are experiencing some confrontation in your waking life. You feel victimized in some situation.
*This to me is clearly statinghow i am feeling abuot my husband at this time in our relationship. I feel he is working towards his won goals and leaving me behind. I want to have more children and he doesnt, leaving me feel like i have been left behind for his own interests. Especially after the loss of our daughter and my feelings of being victimised.
To dream that you are a runaway, indicates that you are struggling with issues of belonging and acceptance. Alternatively, the dream means that you are refusing to confront some issue or situation.

*Yep. I feel there is nothing i can do to change him and i should just "runaway"
To drink soda in your dream, indicates that you need to be more bubbly or vivacious. Liven up! Alternatively, the dream suggests that you need to be refreshed or rejuvenated.

*easier said then done : P
Credit Cards
To dream about credit cards, relate to your worth, value and/or credibility.

To dream that someone is stealing your credit cards, suggest that something or someone is robbing you of vital energy.
*The issues i am dealing with daily surrounding my husband and my self is surely robbing my energy.
Sixteen symbolizes innocence, naivet, vulnerability, and tenderness. It also indicates some spiritual cleansing and destruction of the old and birth of the new. Alternatively, the dream may represents a coming of age for you. Consider the significance of "sweet sixteen".

To dream that you have been robbed, indicates that you are experiencing an identity crisis or are suffering from some sort of loss in your life. Alternatively, the dream means that someone has stolen your success or has taken credit for something you did. Perhaps you feel that you have been treated unfairly.

To see a blond person in your dream, suggests that you need to enjoy life and live it up. Be a little glamorous.

*I am running away from her in my dream.
To dream that you are being chased, signifies that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is conquerable. It is a metaphor for some form of insecurity.

*I am surely feeling insecure in public places such as my new job.
To dream that you are walking on a sidewalk, represents your steady progress and direction in life. You may be experiencing new walks of life. If the sidewalk is cracked, then it signifies minor and temporary setbacks that are keeping you from getting to your destination. Perhaps you need to alter your course and make some changes in your life

To see an ocean in your dream, represents the state of your emotions and feelings. It is indicative of spiritual refreshment, tranquility and renewal. Alternatively, the dream means that you are feeling empowered and unhindered. You have a positive outlook in life and are not limited by anything. If you are sailing across the ocean, then it signifies new found freedom and independence. You are showing great courage. If the ocean is rough, then the dream represents some emotional turmoil. You are doing your best to handle life's ups and downs.

Blue represents truth, wisdom, heaven, eternity, devotion, tranquility, loyalty and openness. Perhaps you are expressing a desire to get away. The presence of this color in your dream, may symbolize your spiritual guide and your optimism of the future. You have clarity of mind. Alternatively, the color blue may also be a metaphor for "being blue" and feeling sad.

To see the sun in your dream, symbolizes peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquility, fortune, goodwill, and insight. It also represents radiant energy and divine power. Generally, the sun is a good omen, especially if the sun is shining in your dream. The sun may also be a metaphor for your "son".

To dream about your backyard, represents your childhood memories or your unconscious. Alternatively, dreaming of your backyard, refers to the secrets you are keeping. There are some aspects of your life which you want to keep hidden and out of the view of others. The dream also represents some aspect of your life that you have taken for granted. Consider also the phrase "not in my backyard." In other words, everything is okay as long as it does not happen to you or occur in your own home. The condition of the yard is also symbolic of how well you maintain and balance aspects of your life.

To dream that you are climbing up a ladder, suggests that you have reached a new level of achievement. It is symbolic of prosperity, hard work and your efforts. Consider also the phrase of "climbing the social ladder" in which you have achieved a promotion, a higher status, more power, or an important goal. Alternatively, it indicates meditation and prayer. You are setting forth on a spiritual path and higher awareness. Each rung of the ladder is symbolic of a stage in your spiritual awareness. The dream may also highlight how you are looking things from a different perspective.

To see or dream that you are on a pier, represents self-reflection and introspective into your unconscious. You are ready to explore and grow as an individual. The dream signals emotional and spiritual growth.

To see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche. In general, the attic represents your intellect, the basement represents the unconscious, etc. If the house is empty, then it indicates feelings of insecurity.If the house is shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and changing your belief system.

To see a hallway in your dream, symbolizes self exploration. It is the beginning of the path that you are taking in life. You are going through a transitional phase and journeying into the unknown. It also signals spiritual enlightenment, emotional growth physical prowess, new opportunities and mental passages in your life.

To dream that you are entering through a door, signifies new opportunities that are presented before you. You are entering into a new stage in your life and moving from one level of consciousness to another. In particular, a door that opens to the outside, signifies your need to be more accessible to others, whereas a door that opens into the inside, denotes your desire for inner exploration and self-discovery.

To dream that you are walking down a flight of stairs, represents your repressed thoughts. You are regressing back into your unconscious. It also refers to the setbacks that you are experiencing in your life. If you are afraid of going down the stairs, then it means that you are afraid to confront your repressed emotions and thoughts. Is there something from your past that you are not acknowledging?
Cell Phone
To see or use a cell phone in your dream, indicates that you are being receptive to new information. It also represents your mobility. Alternatively, the dream signifies lack of understanding. Perhaps you are having difficulties getting through to someone.

To dream that you lost your cell phone, represents a lack of communication. You have lost touch with some aspect of your feelings or your Self.�If you find a cell phone, then it symbolizes reconnection and reopened communication.
To see a train in your dream, represents conformity. You are just going along with what everyone else is doing. Alternatively, a train means that you are very methodical. You need to lay things out specifically and do things in an orderly and sequential manner. In particular, if you see a freight train, then it refers to the burdens and problems that you are hauling around. It is also symbolic of manual labor. If you see a passenger train, then it relates to mental work.

To dream that you are worried about something, is a reflection of waking worry that has carried over to your dream state. You may be harboring some repressed thoughts, some unexpressed emotions, resentments, or hostilities which are triggering your worry dream.

To see a road in your dream, refers to your sense of direction and how you are pursuing your goals. If the road is winding, curvy, or bumpy in your dream, then it suggests that you will encounter many obstacles and setbacks toward achieving your goals. You may be met with unexpected difficulties. If the road is dark, then it reflects the controversial or more frightening choices which you have made or are making.

*I will come back and finish this more as i think about it myself.

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