Monday, February 28, 2011

Day and Night

I had a few dreams last night i tried hard to remember this morning. I remember a bit of each and remember clearly that one was of the day and the others during the night. Lets explore what the "time of the day" in your dreams may represent, or what they may have for me.  I can not remember the rest of the dreams as well as i do this first one, which was much like one long parted dream.

The first dream i remember is of me and my friend Jackie driving my truck through a field. The field was Mrs. Classes yard, a field we've traveled through many times in our childhood, and one i feel very close to and at peace when i travel through it. Suddenly we were walking, and as we were traveling back into the field it was day. We passed by 2 boys fishing in the pond and they mentioned to us that we were not suppose to be in the field. We looked back and there was an older man standing by his truck and had a fishing pole. We tried traveling around him and back out of the field. By this time it was dark and we had to climb over a fence to get out. There was an old man there at the fence that took my bike and tossed it over the fence, helping me. I then climbed over and was in a white dress. This entire dream was what seemed to be in the early 1900's. The clothing and the vehicles were of the time frame, beside my truck in the very beginning of the dream. We walked to the peninsula we grew up on and to my friends grandmothers house. In the house there were 2 older men and they were fighting. One man took a staple gun out and starting shooting the other man in the chest. I was VERY frightened during this part of the dream and until i woke up. I grabbed Jackie, who was now an infant and had a staple in  her mouth. I took her and left through the back entrance of the house and had to jump yet another fence. I believe the elderly man was again at this fence and wanted to help me. The dating in the dream at this point was of "normal time" or recent dating.  I jumped the fence and made my way around the block and down to Jackie's house where i put her into her bed, she was a child at this point in the dream. I looked out the window and noticed 2 girls walking with Elijah. They were bringing him down to Jackie's where i was going to keep them safe. I also remember climbing out of a window. This is where i remember waking up and being very frightened. I was  having anxiety/panic attacks even after i awoke and had a hard time falling back to sleep.  

To dream of a sunny day, symbolizes clarity and/or pleasantness. You are seeing things clearly. To dream of a gloomy or cloudy day, signifies sadness. If you dream of a particular day, then you may need to look closely at that day for any significance. Consider the number associated with that day. A certain date could highlight a special anniversary, appointment or occasion.

To dream of the passing of a day, indicates that you need to manage your time better and plot out your goals in a more deliberate manner

*It was the early morning and the sky was clear. The field was as it always was, nice. Maybe its time to set some goals for myself....

To have a dream that takes place at night, represents some major setbacks and obstacles in achieving your goals. You are being faced with an issue that is not so clear cut. Perhaps, you should put the issues aside so you can clear your head and come back to it later. Alternatively, night may be synonymous with death, rebirth, reflection, and new beginnings.

*Since the death of Stella, i have not set any real goals. This is the first dream/dreams i have had of the night. Today is the 4 month anniversary of Stella's birth and death. So maybe some reflection? The dream also had Jackie in it. Today is one month since her mother passed.

To see a truck in your dream, suggests that you are overworked. You are taking on too many tasks and are weighed down by all the responsibilities. Pregnant women often dream of trucks or driving trucks. This may be a metaphor of the load they are carrying or an expression of their changing bodies.

*The only heavy load i feel i am taking on is of my grief.

To see green fields in your dream, symbolize great abundance, freedom, and happiness. You may also be going through a period of personal growth. Alternatively, this dream may simply be an expression for your love of nature.

*I am surely going through a time of personal growth. I could use more time in nature, winter can not be over fast enough!

To dream that you are fishing, indicates that you are confronting and bringing your repressed emotions to the surface. In particular, to dream that you are ice fishing, suggests that you are breaking through a hardened emotional barrier and confronting difficult feelings from your unconscious.�Alternatively, it represents your need for leisure and relaxation.

Consider the common phrase "fishing for compliments". Perhaps you are looking for attention.

*I wonder if it makes a difference if i was watching others fishing? The boys in the dream were fishing as well as the old man, he was getting ready to go fishing.

Fishing Rod
To see a fishing rod in your dream, represents your quest and exploration of your unconscious mind. You are ready to confront issues and emotions which you have suppressed.

To see a clear, well-stocked fishpond, foretells of profitable enterprises and great pleasures.

To see a pond in your dream, represents tranquility. You need some more quiet time to yourself. It is a time to reflect on your situation and what is going on in your life. Alternatively, a pond suggests that you keep your feelings contained and in check. You are and emotionally calm.

To see a fisherman in your dream, suggests that you are trying to catch something in your waking life.

*Maybe i am trying to catch a break? I sure could use on from this grief, but there is just no way to escape the death of your child.

Old Man
To see an old man in your dream, represents wisdom or forgiveness. The old man may be a archetypal figure who is offering guidance to some daily problem.

*Maybe the old man is representing God, and how he was trying to help me but i climbed the fence myself each time. Maybe the man represents the fact that God is there when i need him and choose to let God help?

To see a fence in your dream, signifies an obstacle or barrier that may be standing on your path. You may feel confined and restricted in expressing yourself. Are you feeling fenced in some situation or confined in some relationship? Alternatively, it may symbolize a need for privacy. You may want to shut off the rest of the world.

To dream that you are climbing to the top of a fence, denotes success. If you climb over the fence, then it indicates that you will accomplish your desires via not so legitimate means. If you dream that you are on the fence, then the dream may be a metaphor indicating that you undecided about something. To dream that you fall from a fence, denotes that you are in way over your head in regards to some project which you are dealing with.
*I climbed the fence each time successfully. The old man was there each time. The first he tossed my bike over and the second he held baby Jackie while i got over.

To see a bicycle in your dream, indicates that you need to devote time to leisurely pursuits and recreation.
*We just made reservations for a family get away for this weekend. I need time out of my head for sure. I feel i need to get away for some time alone as well.

To see or wear a dress in your dream, represents a feminine outlook or feminine perspective on a situation. You are freely expressing your femininity. If you are a man and dream that you are wearing a dress, suggests that others are questioning your sexuality. Or that you are feeling sexually insecure.

To dream that you are wearing a white dress, implies that you want to appear pure and angelic toward others. Perhaps you are trying to look "innocent". If the dress is another color, look up the specific color for additional significance.
* I have been feeling insecure with the extra weight i now carry from the pregnancy with Stella. I have to get into a swimsuit this weekend too. ICK. NOT looking forward to that!

To dream that you are in a fight, indicates inner turmoil. Some aspect of yourself is in conflict with another aspect of yourself. Perhaps an unresolved or unacknowledged part is fighting for its right to be heard. It may also parallel a fight or struggle that you are going through in your waking life. If you are fighting to the death, then it refers to your refusal to acknowledge some waking conflict or inner turmoil. You are unwilling to change your old attitudes and habits.

To see others fighting in your dream, suggests that you are unwilling to acknowledge your own problems and turmoil. You are not taking any responsibility or initiative in trying to resolve issues in your waking life.
*I have been all over every problem in my life right now. I am feeling insecure about the future and what path to take as of now.

To see staples in your dream, indicate that you need to organize your life and keep things in order. Learn to sort out your feelings and express them. The dream may also be a pun on the "staples" or basic essentials of your life.

To see an infant in your dream, represents a brand new project. It signifies possibilities and potentials.

To see your bed in your dream, represents your intimate self and discovery of your sexuality. If you are sleeping in your own bed, then it denotes security and restoration of your mind.You may be looking for domestic bliss, for peace or for some form of escape. If you are waking up in a different and/or unknown bed, then it represents the consequences of the decisions you have made.The dream may also be a pun on the completion of a project and "putting it to bed." Consider the condition of the bed. If the bed is made, then it symbolizes security. If the bed is unmade, then it indicates that certain secrets will soon be exposed or revealed.Or that you are exhibiting some carelessness in your sexual behavior.

*I wonder what it represents of me putting Jackie, as a child, into her bed?

To save a child in your dream, signifies your attempts to save a part of yourself from being destroyed. If you dream that you are separated from your children, then it symbolizes failure in some personal endeavor or a setback in some ideal you had.
* I am having a hard time letting go of Stella. I really don't like being separated from her at all.

To see a window in your dream, signifies bright hopes, vast possibilities and insight.If the window of a house is dark, then it indicates a loss to your perception or vitality.To see a tinted window in your dream, represents your need for privacy. You are keeping some aspects of yourself hidden. You also want to remain ambiguous. To dream that you are washing windows, suggest that you need some clarity in some matter. Something is not clear.

To dream that you are looking out the window, signifies your outlook on life, your consciousness and your point of view. It also refers to your intuition and awareness. You may be reflecting on a decision. Or you need to go out into the larger world and experience life. If you are looking in the window, then it indicates that you are doing some soul searching and looking within yourself. It is time for some introspection. To see another face in the window in your dream, suggests that you are feeling emotionally distant and physically detached. Also consider the emotion depicted on the face.

*I was looking out the window at the 2 girls walking Elijah down the road.

To dream that you feel fear, indicates that your achievements will not be as successful as you had anticipated. You are experiencing anxieties in various aspects of your life. The key to overcoming your fear is to discuss them and deal with them openly.

To dream that you worse fears are coming true, signifies your resistance to change. You are afraid to confront the unknown aspects of yourself.
To dream that you are scared, indicates that you are experiencing feelings of self-doubt, incompetence, and lack of control in your waking life. Perhaps you are having second thoughts about a decision you have made. Anger often masquerades as fear, so also consider issues about which you are angry about in your waking life.

I wonder if some dreams you have of certain people may have a message for them, or if it could be your unconscious take on what they are doing in their waking life?
Of if your dreams are just your own unconscious message to yourself?
What do you think?

Dream on.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

work and play

I dreamt of my job last night. Something i have not in a long time. I went in to work to make sure all was "OK" and see who had replaced me in the bar. I went in and checked everything out and it was a mess. It was just messy and disorganized. I helped cut limes and left.

I had a second dream that i do not wish to share. I can not interpret it either.

The last was of me at some kind of festival or race. It may have been a nascar race. I was in the parking lot and had a van. It was full of stuff. My aunt was there and i was preparing to see her. i was signing a blanket to give to her in thanks for all she has done and is doing to help out our NPO Enraptured Embrace. I didn't get it done in time before she came. I rushed to get it done and felt bad because i didn't get it done earlier.
There were people all around me partying and having a good time. I never felt good in the dream. I didn't feel like i was a part of the party even once. There were also some girls who were drunk and trying to sit in my van. I had to tell 2 of them to get out of my van because there were children sleeping inside. My sisters were also sitting in the van.

JOB~To dream that you are looking for a job, suggests that you are feeling unfulfilled and frustrated in a current phase of your life. If you are applying for several jobs in your dream, then it suggests that you need a clear direction and focused goal. To dream about your current job, suggests that you need to work harder or be more effective at work. There may be something or some task that must be done at once. Or the dream may mean you are overworked or preoccupied with work. You need to make time for leisure and relaxation. To dream that you lose your job, represents instability and insecurity in your waking life.

*I am currently not working there any longer. I believe it may be a reminder that i need to go back complete a few things before i can forget about that place. I also had always felt it was a very disorganized and messy place.

Van~To see or drive a van in your dream, symbolizes convenience and/or practicality. Consider the load that you are carrying and what you can handle. Don't stress yourself out.

* I feel this last dream had to do with the EE venture me and my sister are set out on. I feel like i am maybe carrying a load i cant handle? Maybe i am getting stressed out about it all? I also feel like i am not completing what i should in reasonable time. I also want to write my aunt. I don't know why i have not yet either.

Rush/Hurry~To dream that you are in a rush, indicates that you need to better manage your time. You feel that you do not have the time to do all the things you want to do. The dream is also representative of the pressure you are putting on yourself. You feel unprepared. Perhaps, the dream is telling you to slow down.
To dream that you are in a hurry, suggests that may be unprepared for a situation. There is a lack in your planning of things. Alternatively, to dream that you are in a hurry means that you are feeling out of place. This dream may also be a literal reflection of your daily life where you feel that you are always in a rush. And that there is not enough time to do all the things you want to do. The dream may occur due to this type of stress.

* I may feel rushed only because i spend most of my time in a daze and not on the tasks at hand. Most of the time i don't want to do anything, so i don't. Then i feel rushed to do whatever task i have been procrastinating. I do feel out of place in just about every single thing i do. So i don't do anything.

Party~To dream that you are at a party, suggests that you need to get out more and enjoy yourself. If the party is a bad one, then it indicates that you are unsure of your social skills. If you dream that you are at your own birthday party, then it represents appreciation of the life you have.

Not sure how to interpret the rest of the dream at this time. Suggestions are always welcome!

Dream on

Monday, February 21, 2011

On my way

My dream last night was of me attending a funeral, something i have done quite a bit of in the last 2 years of my life. I can not tell you whose funeral it was though and i was not ever "at" it in my dream. It was a thought in my head of what i was doing. I was driving by myself on the freeway, total control over the vehicle, not a thing out of the ordinary happening. I was drinking coffee through out the entire dream. I drove to a resturant  which was in the basement of a building. and there were many people there who i knew. People who were also attending the funeral. These are people who i used to be friends with, in a life i now feel is a whole different life than i am living now. A life i felt happy in then. It felt good to see those faces. There were also some children there dining with their parents who i used to teach for, again in the time of my life. I left the resturant and was again driving. I ened up at the house i grew up in and someone asked me to tye dye a shirt for them. It was old and stained and they thought by me tye dying it they could get more life out of it. I wrapped the Tshirt and put rubberbands on it and put aside. I went to water my plants. There was this palm tree plant. In the pot were 2 trees. One was larger and sickly looking, the other still small and young, but healthy looking. I was examining the plant that looked sickly and the stem of the plant was squishy and yellowing, as well as the center of the leaves. I sat and debated what i shuld do with the plant and what may be causing the destruction of the tree. I then woke up.

Funeral~To dream that you are at somebody else's funeral, signifies that you are burying an old relationship and closing the lid on the past. You may be letting go some of the feelings (resentment, anger, hostility toward someone) that you have been clinging onto. If your are dreaming that you are at a funeral of an unknown person, then it suggests that something in your life needs to put to rest or put aside so that you can make room for something new. You need to investigate further what aspect or component of your life you need to let go.

*Well that makes sense. Guess it is telling me that it is time to let go of myself and my life i once lived. I dwell a lot on the idea that i was happy durring that stage in my life. That time was my "good ole days" time. The fact that i was never "at" the funeral just "on my way to" may be stating that this is somthing i have to do, or am on my way to doing, but have not done yet. 

Driving~ To dream that you are driving a vehicle, signifies your life's journey and your path in life. The dream is telling of how you are moving and navigating through life. If you are driving and cannot see the road ahead of you, then it indicates that you do not know where you are headed in life and what you really want to do with yourself. You are lacking direction and goals. Similarly, to dream that you are driving at night, suggests that you are unsure of where you are headed in life. You are experiencing obstacles toward your goals. Perhaps you do not want to see what is ahead for you or you are afraid to confront certain issues. You may be feeling apprehensive about the future. If your view is blocked or obstructed while you are driving, then it symbolizes your lacking awareness of something in your life. You are overlooking certain aspects in your life. Alternatively, the dream indicates dangers or problems that are not yet made known to you. If you are driving on a curvy road, then it indicates that you are having difficulties in achieving your goals and accepting the changes associated with it.
Metaphorically, driving a car in your dream, is analogous to your sex life and sexual performance. Consider how you are driving and what kind of car you are driving and how it relates to your waking sex life. Or the dream may be a pun on your "drive" or ambition.
To dream that someone else is driving you, denotes fortune and that you will profit from your superior knowledge and ingenuity. If you are driving from the passenger side of a car, then it suggests that you are trying to gain control of the path that your life is taking. You are beginning to make your own decisions.
To dream that you are driving a cab or bus, suggests that menial tasks are providing little opportunities for advancement.
To dream that you are driving a car in reverse, suggests that you are experiencing major setbacks in your goals. In particular, if you drive in reverse into a pool of water, then it means that you emotions are literally holding you back.
Freeway~To dream that you are on a freeway, indicates that you are feeling liberated and free.You are well on your way to achieving your goals. If the freeway is slow moving or blocked, then it suggests frustrations or obstacles that are hindering your path toward your goals.

* I was driving durring the day, the way was clear and the road was in good shape. The vehicle was driving compleately normal and i was always "on my way" So i am interpreting this as maybe i am "on my way" to feeling liberated and free?

Coffee~To dream that you are drinking or need your coffee, suggests that you need to gain some insight and knowledge before making a decision or tackling some project/relationship. You may be acting too hasty and need to slow down. Alternatively, it may imply a need for you to change your routine.

*This may be an indicater to how i am feeling towards many aspects in my waking life right now.

Basement~ (there was no interpretation on resturant) To dream that you are in a basement, symbolizes your unconscious mind and intuition. The appearance of the basement is an indication of your unconscious state of mind and level of satisfaction.�It represents primal urges, animalistic desires and basic needs. The dream may also be metaphor for "abasement" or being "debased". Are you feeling humbled or unworthy?

Plants~To see plants in your dream, indicate fertility, spiritual development, potential, and growth. Alternatively, the appearance of plants in your dream reflect your caring and loving nature.If you are estranged from your children, then the plants can be seen as representative for your children.
In particular, to see indoor plants in your dream, suggest that your growth is being hindered or slowed in some way. You are experiencing a lack of independence. Alternatively, the dream signifies your desire to be closer to nature.
To see droopy, withered or dead plants in your dream, suggest that you are at a standstill in your life. You are lacking initiative.

*I feel this particualr part of my dream is an important interpretation that i maybe should study a little closer.
The fact that i had 2 plants, one was older and wilted the other young and healthy. I feel it may be an indicater that i have to move on from that life i loved, for it is wilted and dying. I have been almost obsessed trying to figure out what went wrong in my life to lead it to this wilted dying state it is in. Maybe i should clip it and take care of the "new young" life i have now? I definetly feel as though i am at a standstill in life.

Saturday, February 19, 2011


On the nights where i just don't have an extensive dream to share i will share the different kinds of dreams via the dream web site i am using for my dream interpretations. Last night i had a dream i just cant remember very well. the one thing i do remember is that it had to do with being in a vehicle. It was a large semi or mobile home type vehicle and i was just riding along. I was not driving and i cant really remember who was. I did have a dream last week that i was driving a very large truck that was pulling a trailer with 2 jet skis on it. I couldn't get the trucks breaks to work properly and i felt the truck was abnormally large for me to be driving. Lets look into what this site talks about when it comes to vehicle dreams.

To dream that you are riding in a vehicle (car, boat, trains, etc.), signifies the level and type of control you have over your life. Alternatively, the dream means that someone is exerting their power over you, depending on who is in the driver's seat.

To dream that you are thrown from a vehicle, refers to your hastiness and quick temper. Consider the specific vehicle for additional meaning.

I have many dreams that include vehicles and driving. Many times the breaks don't work properly int he cars i am driving and i am traveling down hills or feel the vehicle is careening out of control.
To dream that you are driving a car, denotes your ambition, your drive and your ability to navigate from one stage of your life to another. Consider how smooth or rough the car ride is. If you are driving the car, then you are taking an active role in the way your life is going. However, if you are the passenger, then you are taking a passive role. If you are in the backseat of the car, then it indicates that you are putting yourself down and are allowing others to take over. This may be a result of low self-esteem or low self-confidence. Overall, this dream symbol is an indication of your dependence and degree of control you have on your life.
To dream that you forgot or can't find where you parked your car, indicates that you are dissatisfied or unhappy with an aspect of your waking life. You do not know what you really want to do with your life or where you want to go. To dream that you car has been stolen, indicates that you are being stripped of your identity. This may relate to losing your job, a failed relationship, or some situation which has played a significant role in your identity and who you are as a person. If you dream that your car is overheating, then it suggests that you are expending too much energy. You need to slow down or run the risk of being burnt out. You are taking on more than you can handle. It is time to take a breather.�
To see a parked car in your dream, suggests that you need to turn your efforts and energies elsewhere. You may be needlessly spending your energy in a fruitless endeavor. Alternatively, a parked car may symbolize your need to stop and enjoy life. To dream that you cannot find where you parked your car, suggests that you do not know where you want to go in life.�
To dream that you are almost hit by a car, suggests that your lifestyle, beliefs or goals may be in conflict with another. It may also be symbolic of a jolting experience or injured pride. To dream that you are unable to roll up the windows of your car, suggests that you are showing some hesitation and reservation about the direction that you are taking in life or the path that you have chosen.To see a haunted car in your dream, represents unfinished goals. You had started off on a path or journey, but never reached the end. Perhaps life had taken you on a different direction that you had planned or intended. *Please see Also Automobile
To dream that you are riding in an automobile, signifies that even in pleasant situations, you will still be restless and uneasy.
To dream that you nearly escape from the impact of an automobile, denotes that you will successfully overcome any rivalry.
To dream that there is no one driving the automobile, suggests that you need to reassess your level of control over your life. You are unwilling to take responsibilities for your actions.

I was specifically in a truck last night and in the other dream as well. Lets see what they say about that.

Pick-Up Truck
To see a pick-up truck in your dream, represents hard work. You need to return to the basics. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor for something that you need to "pick up".
Semi Truck
To see a semi truck in your dream, indicates that you are feeling overburdened or that you are being taken advantage of. You feel that you are pulling more than your own weight and it is time that others share in some of the responsibilities. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes size, largeness and power.

*I can relate bot of these explanations to the events i endure in my waking life. The Pick-Up i can imagine is directed towards my grief. It is hard work and the breaks not working is maybe pointed towards the idea that this is something i can not stop. I have to get up the power to work through it.
The Semi from last night i am sure is also directed towards this grief as well. I am sure just about everything will be because it is my life right now. There is not much else that has my mind, energy and attention at this point.  It indicating and looking at the heavy load that is losing your child and the power it can have over ones life.

Do you commonly have dreams of vehicles?
How do you interpret them?
Do any of these interpretations make sense for you?

Friday, February 18, 2011

Trio of Dreams

Last night i had a few dreams that i remembered bits and pieces of. The first was of a concert, that is all i remembered from it. Later i found my self at my friend Jackie's house. I have this particular home in my dreams A LOT. I was there and trying to fix the door which was broken off of the hinges. Her oldest brother came home with a toaster and gram crackers on a plate he put them on the counter said something and left. When he left the plate was empty. 
I woke up in the middle of the night after this dream and got my water, used the restroom and went back to sleep. I had a hard time falling back to sleep.
The last dream i remember before waking this morning was of another concert. I was in Sweden i guess and we were on top of this hill. It was concrete and had very odd benches all along the top. They were green, wavy like and close together. I was watching 2 men, dressed in black, try to walk along the top of these benches and fall and hit their faces on them over and over. One man was carrying a shovel. I thought to myself " Why don't they just walk down the isles inbetween?"  
Suddenly I was then at the other end of the benches and there were people, many elderly people all getting ready to watch a concert, it was daytime through out each of these dreams. My sisters Korin and Karie were there as well as my mother. I was telling them about a few concerts i was planning on attending that year. One of the elderly women was near by and told me how nice that was. My sister Korin then gave me a hug and a kiss. She turned and started adjusting the buckles on Addison's umbrella stroller as she was in it.  Then we were talking about tattoos. I had a very large leg piece that included Stella's name, some roses and one star. It wrapped all around my left calf. I could stretch my skin so that it enveloped Stella's name. The last thing i remember is being in a bright white room, where everything in the room was white. I remember the sun shining into the windows and there were white curtains blowing in the breeze. I woke up thinking about the tattoo and wondering why i would put Stella's name on both of my calves, although i hadn't got her name yet at all.

Concert~ To dream that you are at a concert, represents harmony and cooperation in a situation or relationship in your waking life. You are experiencing an uplift in your spirits.
* Well i sure hope so! Maybe this has to do with Matt and i agreeing about my quitting my prior job.

Door~To dream that you are entering through a door, signifies new opportunities that are presented before you. You are entering into a new stage in your life and moving from one level of consciousness to another. In particular, a door that opens to the outside, signifies your need to be more accessible to others, whereas a door that opens into the inside, denotes your desire for inner exploration and self-discovery. To see an opened door in your dream, symbolizes your receptiveness and willingness to accept new ideas/concepts. In particular, to see a light behind the door, suggests that you are moving toward greater enlightenment/spirituality.
*I wonder what it may represent when i am trying to fix the door?

Toaster~To see a toaster in your dream, suggests that you are quick witted and quick-thinking. It refers to your continuous flow of ideas.

Crackers~To see or eat a cracker in your dream, suggests that you tend to care for the needs of others before your own. You spend your time looking after other people and as a result, neglect your needs. The dream may also be a pun on "crack her". Perhaps you are trying to get someone to reveal certain information or secrets.

Plate~To see a plate in your dream, symbolizes your hunger for life. You are showing potential and promise for the future. The dream may be a symbol that you have too much on your plate. If the plate is empty in your dream, then it indicates that there is an emotional void in your waking life. You may be feeling left out. Alternatively, it suggests that you need to rethink your priorities.

Hill~To dream that you are climbing a hill, signifies your struggles in achieving a goal. You need to focus your energies on the prize. To dream that you are standing on top of a hill, suggests that you have succeeded in your endeavors. You have the necessary resources to complete the task at hand.

*Maybe i have the resources but i doubt i have "achieved" any goals i am struggling with right now.  I wonder what it means if the concert is at the bottom of the hill and im atop it? Maybe its my unconscious mind thinking about Alpine Valley, because that is how its set up?

Benches~ To see or sit on a bench, signifies your tendency to procrastinate and put things aside. It also suggests that you often take on a passive role instead taking initiative.

Men~To see men in your dream, represent an authoritative figure or a father figure. If you are a woman and dream that you are in a room full of men, then it highlights the masculine aspect of yourself. The dream forces you to acknowledge your authoritative and aggressive side. Consider also how the men are dressed as this will provide a clue as to what area in your life you need to assert more power.

Shovel~To see a shovel in your dream, suggests that you are seeking knowledge, insight, and inner intellect. You are on a quest for a new understanding of your true Self. Alternatively, a shovel means that you are trying too hard in finding the truth to a problem.

*Maybe all of these are tied together into one... The benches being in a wavy pattern may suggest the patterns of my grief. And when i try to hard to walk on top of that i stumble and fall. Maybe the men in my dream represent the side of me that is trying to take on too much and i am falling and getting hurt. Maybe i need to walk beside my grief for awhile and not try to stay on top of it. The shovel ties this together for me. I am trying too hard to find the answer as to why this happened, when in fact i will never know and ill keep getting hurt trying.

Old People~To see something old in your dream, suggests that there is something in your life that you need to replace or get rid of. Alternatively, the dream means that there may be something in the past that you need to incorporate into your current life.
 To see people you don't know in your dream, denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront or acknowledge.

Daytime/Afternoon~To dream of the afternoon time, suggest that it is time to put your energies to good use. Draw and learn from your past experiences and lessons. Alternatively, it symbolizes clarity to a situation.

Sisters~To see your sister in your dream, symbolizes some aspect of your relationship with her, whether it one of sibling rivalry, nurturing, protectiveness, etc. Your sister may draw attention to your family role. Or the dream may also serve to remind you that someone in your waking life has characteristics similar to your sister. Alternatively, your sister may be a metaphor for a nun. In this case, she may represent some spiritual issues.

Mother~To see your mother in your dream, represents the nurturing aspect of your own character. Mothers offer shelter, comfort, life, guidance and protection. Some people may have problems freeing themselves from their mothers and are thus seeking their own individuality and development. To dream that you are having a conversation with your mother, denotes a matter that has preoccupied your mind and you are not sure how to deal with it in your waking life. It indicates unresolved problems that need to be worked out with your mother.

Hug and Kiss~To dream that you are hugging someone, symbolizes your loving and caring nature. You are holding someone or something close to your heart. Alternatively, it may indicate your need to be more affectionate.To dream of a kiss, denotes love, affection, tranquility, harmony, and contentment.

Tattoo~To dream that you have tattoos, represent your sense of individuality and the desire to stand out in a crowd. You want to be unique and different from everybody else, particularly if you do not have any tattoos in real life. Consider also what the tattoo is and what significance it has in your life. It may represent something that has left a lasting impression on you. Alternatively, to dream that you have a tattoo, suggests that a waking situation or decision is having a much longer lasting effect that you had expected.

Bright White Room~To dream that you are in an empty white room, indicates a fresh start. It is like a blank canvas where you want to start life anew. Alternatively, the dream means that you are trying to isolate yourself. You do not want any outside influences.

Sun~ To see the sun in your dream, symbolizes peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquility, fortune, goodwill, and insight. It also represents radiant energy and divine power. Generally, the sun is a good omen, especially if the sun is shining in your dream.

My dreams are obviously centered around the spiritual aspect of what is happening in my life right now. Recovering from my grief and loss of my daughter and trying to rediscover myself and the spirituality. I will most likely come back to this dream and read through this all again and comment more later...

Thursday, February 17, 2011

"The EX"

Last night i had a dream that included an Ex-boyfriend. We were at his home, which i had once shared with him for about 2 years. I was in the back yard and there was a deer who was almost charging me. I had some food in my hand which the deer wanted, but i couldn't get the deer to back down. I also had a grocery cart in my hand and was using that to keep the deer back. It was coming at me from underneath the cart. My Ex then took the deer and killed it by breaking its neck. I told him i could have handled it if i had the gun i had earlier as we were walking back to the house. As we returned back to the house we were scurrying to get ready for my sisters wedding, in my dream i knew that my sister was already married, and was thinking this was a vow renewal. It was at 12:15 and the reception was at 1pm. I was worried we would be late and then seen a clock and we had 30mins to get ready. I was gathering things and had to get a shirt ironed for my Ex. The clothes i needed were in the fridge and i thought to myself i really need to keep the clothes out of the fridge, and that when i took them out, the fridge looked bare. I thought to myself i needed to go grocery shopping.
Then my Ex was gone and i had to use the bathroom. His older brother was there and told me he had to use it too, there was no door or walls around the bathroom. It was like the toilet was in the middle of the living room. He was just waking up and had another man with him, i thought to myself " I knew he was gay"
( But IRL he is not, he is married with children. ) So i was sitting on the toilet and i had my period, and i was embarrassed he was just there waiting for me to finish using the toilet so he could take a shit. The whole time i had an infant in my arms. I believe it was my son as an infant. I finished and went to the porch where i had placed my son into his car seat and placed a blue blanked over the seat and prepared to depart to the wedding.

The sight i am going to use to interpret the dream is
This site uses key words to interpret the dream, i will make the words i use BOLD in the dream and list them below. At the end of each interpretation i will give my take on this item and how i feel it may connect to my waking life. Sometimes dreams will not make sense to me for a few day or longer. IF something comes up later in my life that connects to this dream i will update the post with the date and connection.  The dream dictionary interpretation is in blue and mine in black.

Ex-boyfriend~ To see an old ex-boyfriend from childhood in your dream, refers to a freer, less encumbered relationship. The dream serves to bring you back to a time where the responsibilities of adulthood (or marriage) did not interfere with the spontaneity of romance. You need to recapture the excitement, freedom, and vitality of youth that is lacking in your present relationship. To dream that you are being massaged by your ex-boyfriend, suggests that you need to let go of some of that defensiveness that you have been putting forth as a result of a past relationship. You may have put up a wall or armor around you. You need to learn to trust people again. If you dream that your ex-boyfriend is dressed in a suit at a hospital, then suggests that you have come to terms with that relationship and have completed the healing process.

*This can make sense to me in may ways with the relationship i have with my husband now. He is trying to help me recover from the tragedy of losing our daughter in October and i believe somehow this point in my dream may be telling me that he IS trying and i need to let him in more. I need to bring down my defenses and let my husband care for me like he wants to. I also need to be more inhibited when it comes to our romance. My defenses have been on lock down since the tragedy of loosing our newborn.

Deer~ To see a deer in your dream, symbolizes grace, compassion, gentleness, meekness and natural beauty. It has feminine qualities and may point to the feminine aspect within yourself. It also represents independence, alertness, and virility. Consider the symbol to be a pun for someone who is "dear" to you. Alternatively, the dream represents vulnerability and naivety�. As a result, others may take advantage of you and your gullibility.

*I am not sure how this compares to the deer charging me.... Maybe i am resisting my feminine side and being too overruling in my relationship. I need to let my husband take on the role of the male and be the leader in the family? I am a very controlling person by nature and maybe i have to be more graceful, compassionate and gentile.

Grocery Cart~ To see or use a shopping cart in your dream, indicates that you are reaping the rewards and benefits of your hard work. Alternatively, to push a shopping cart in your dream, suggests that you need to search out more options for some aspect of your life. Remember that you have choices and you do not need to settle. If the shopping cart is empty, then it suggests that you are coming up empty in some endeavor or plan.

* My take on this interpretation can be in many aspects of my waking life. I was using the empty grocery cart to ward off the charging deer. I did quit my job yesterday, which was a much need choice for my own health and well being. Maybe i feel i am coming up empty on what choice or step i need to make next?

Wedding~To dream that you are attending a wedding, consider how you feel at the wedding. If you are upset or sad, then it means that you are unhappy about the current status of your life. If you are happy, then you are embracing a new change in your life.
* I was planning on attending a wedding, and i was worried i would be late. So maybe having the worried feeling is me worrying about the current transition in my life about my work or maybe in general what i could do next in life.

Fridge/Clothes~To see or open a refrigerator in your dream, represents your chilling personality and/or cold emotions. The dream may also be telling you that you need to put some goal, plan, or situation on hold. Alternatively, a refrigerator signifies that you have accomplished what you have been unconsciously seeking.
To dream of your clothes, is symbolic of your public self and how you are perceived. It is indicative of the act you put on in front of others. Clothes are also an indication of your condition and status in life. Thus, if you wear clothes that do not suit you or that you normally would not wear, then it suggests that you are putting up a front and trying to deceive others. Something in your life is "unsuitable". It may be a symbol of hypocrisy and being someone that you are not. Alternatively, it could also mean that you are revealing a hidden part of yourself to the world. To dream that your clothes are soiled and you are trying to clean them, signify your attempts to change something about your character. You may need to change your old habits and old ways of thinking. To dream that you are wearing brand new clothes, signify new attitudes and a new persona. You are finding a different way of expressing yourself.

* I put these two together because i was taking the clothes out of the fridge and feel there is a connection to them being together. Maybe i have to put on "hold" or "chill out" on the idea or feelings i have on how i am perceived by others? Maybe the job i just quit did not  "suite" me and i need to just chill out and relax about me quitting. I also had to Iron the clothing and was thinking to myself that  had to keep the clothes out of the fridge..... maybe i need to not be so cold in my ways? This could go in many directions!

Bathroom~ To dream that you are in the bathroom, relates to your instinctual urges. You may be experiencing some burdens/feelings and need to "relieve yourself". Alternatively, a bathroom symbolizes purification and self-renewal. You need to cleanse yourself, both emotionally and psychologically. To dream that you are in a public restroom with no stalls or that there are a lot of people around while you are trying to do your business, signifies your frustrations about getting enough privacy. You are always putting others ahead of your own needs. As a result, you are lacking a sense of personal space. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are having difficulties letting go of old emotions. You are afraid that if you reveal these feelings, then others around you will judge and criticize you.

* This can also be interpreted in many ways but makes sense to me in a few. The fact that i had my menstrual cycle and was holding a newborn may be suggesting my want and need for another child. I am feeling burdened by the fact i am not pregnant and the fact i lost my newborn and that has created so many of these feeling of anguish. I am pretty public on the subject ( blog at  So maybe not having the privacy on that subject is why i had none in the restroom. Not really sure why it would be my Ex's brother though.... I am still talking with his sister-in-law and sister and i know they read the blog, maybe that is it?  Maybe some people are criticizing the fact i am so honest and open on my blog? Or maybe it is a fear i have.

Infant~ To see an infant in your dream, represents a brand new project. It signifies possibilities and potentials.

*Pretty self explanatory i guess.

Tell me what you think!
Share with me some of your dreams!
Have you had similar dreams & do they connect with any of these interpretations?
Do you know of any other great dream interpretation web pages i could use for my new blog?

Dream On

In the Beginning....There was a dream.

I have dreams every night and most times i can remember these dreams vividly. I decided to start a blog on these dreams and interpret them using online dream dictionaries, then compare these interpretations to the evens in my waking life. I have been though many tragic events in my life and may of these life changing evens have been with in the last year. I have a blog about the biggest life changing event @ This blog talks about the loss of my newborn baby in Oct. of 2010. She was born full-term and durring an emergency Csect she didn't make it. It has obviously had an impact on my life and even the life i have in my dreams. Read as i try to make sense of my unconscious mind, and discover what my dreams may be telling me.  I ask everyone to join in and share their dreams, or interpretations of mine!
Dream On!